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I think I am in love. No, this time it’s serious. I’ve caught the disease and can’t get rid of it. I patiently weight for the other to notice. I sound like a stalker. I need him to know. He needs to know. I don’t think it’s healthy for either one of use to live any longer without being aware without knowing the opportunity that lies before us. He is mine. Somewhere in my existence I lost him but he is found. He cannot remember me, where it all began, but this connection is not mistaken. Here, he is here.  My heart rate climbs we look at one another and....

A Contrite Heart

They say no sin is too great 

If that is true why do I feel like there us no coming back from this one 

If too whom much is given much is required than i really ought to know better. 

But here I go again selfishly running back to the same sin that had me bound 

That sin that you have so graciously freed me from

If you are the best thing I have ever known and loved … and you are, than why do I constantly choose the lesser over you. 

This flesh of mine is addicted to unrighteousness 

I know you are coming back again, but I am not even worthy of your return

But I guess that's the point huh… 

The fact that ill never be worthy never be deserving of your grace and mercy

Time and time you have freed me and time and time again I have failed you. But you keep on loven me

You keep on lovein me

If it were up to me I would have been counted out a long time ago

But where would I be if that became true 

a slave to my sin

I'd be lost and unaware of you 

But God I don't want to have to sin 

in order to constantly be aware of your saving grace

Oh Lord free me from my sin so that you may become my master

I want to love you more 

Help me every day to love you more 

I know there will be a day where I can and will freely choose you, but until that day I pray that you would shackle me to your holiness so that I will always be aware of my fallen nature

I love you

Pride

She is the very thing that led to Satan's demise 

many fear her because of her feelings of ecstasy 

if you let her in she could make Even the cross go dim 

she is so persuasive and attractive she is the poison of the industry There are some who even walk into the holy place and use the stage that is prepared for His throne and Grace to shine the light on themselves and cause others to worship the gift and not the giver

 Many have been freed from her trap Only to fall back into her cycle when she pulls up the image in the mirror of desire

she sells an illusion of what life could be if you only let go of your victory the fearful thing is that you may be fooled into  loveing her

 let go of your Savior and hang onto another 

like a contortionist She causes me to turn around and worship myself 

if We are not careful We may build faith in her hollow words 

and begin climbing a ladder that only leads downwards 

into a spiral of decay

You see I confused my lust for her with love 

I was willing to give away everything that I have gained in freedom 

She is a liar and a deceiver 

she is the motive behind suicide 

she'll make you think adultery is justified 

The truth is she cannot save you 

 she has every intention of killing you But there is one who sawThrough her He cast down the illusions of a glamorous sinful nature 

He knew that you wouldn't be able to do it alone 

He exchanged your sin for His throne

 three days later he rose again proving that he was the one sent and now faith in him must arise so that you won't be another victim of prides lies